A bit of grieving, going back to the day I last saw him, my birthday...
Once upon a time,
A Cinderella went
to a ball
And met a Prince.
And they danced,
they laughed, they loved…
And they kept an
eye on the clock
Knowing they had
only ‘til midnight
They tried to make
the best out of every minute, every second
Tried to give each
other only the best of themselves
Midnight came
And with great
sorrow they parted…
Taking each with
them a memory and knowledge
Of laughter and love
And making the most
of time.
11.25.12
There are too many words
To describe what
I’m feeling
They spin around
and around in my head
Yet choke me when I
try to speak
My pen can't keep
up with them
It would take a
lifetime to get them all out
And in no way would
17 syllables suffice
un-ku-ku
11.25.12
I don't question why.
I can see a big
picture.
I just miss you
here.
Still waiting-ku
11.27.12
The air is misty
Dampening the
surface
Of everything it
touches
A solitary raindrop
falls
Then another...and
another still
The clouds let go
Releasing the
floodgates
And it rains
Gray skies are
crying
The tears I cannot
shed
11.12.12
I’m waiting…waiting
waiting…quiet and
still
listening…listening
Listening..for the
sound of your voice
hoping…hoping
Hoping…for that
connection
Feeling…feeling
Feeling…a heart so
full
11.11.12
Soft kisses stolen
lush kisses shared
in private
impressed on the
heart
kisses are
forever-ku
11.11.12
Patience is a word
I'm told I need
more patience.
FUCK is a word, too.
I'm screwed – ku
11.10.12
Go through the motions
Smile, speak when
necessary
Sleep. Begin again.
11.10.12
A sad day, indeed
When even Milton
Hershey
Can't take care of
me
11.08.12
breath-taking moments.
but to be able to
give
some of them back?
always with me-ku
11.07.12
Happy, satisfied
Stable, determined,
content
Imaginative
Complete, connected
Receptive, present,
able
Things I dream to be
UN-ku
11.07.12
Internal pressure
Demanding to be
released
Gaining momentum
I can feel it
build- ku
11.07.12
In matters of time
it's a drop in the
bucket
and, now, forever
11.04.12
11.04.12
Juvenile? Probably. But I
bet I could make a good pop(tart) song out of it:
Hit and Run
I wasn’t looking
When I crossed that
street
You came along
suddenly
I was blindsided
With no protection
against the collision
Stunned, with no
sense of direction
You turned my world
upside down
When I looked up
You were nowhere to
be found
The heart has no
insurance
Against a claim
like this
Just try to pick up
the pieces
And move on…move on
You came into my
life like a hit and run
Hit me hard, and
now you're gone
11.01.12
I'm riding the fence
Between what is and
what was
A life in limbo
11.01.12
Sunshine on my face
attempting to
pervade the
dark thoughts of
the mind
10.31.12
bright warmth creeps
slowly
across damp skin,
slight breezes
dry the tears away
Nature's tissue-ku
10.31.12
Yes, it takes time, but
when will I stop
noticing
plans made 'without
you'?
constantly
reminded-ku
10.30.12
Spread my wings and run
into the heart of
the sun.
I get it. Swan song.
through all the
days and all the years right here I'll be – ku
10.29.12
you’d bite your lower lip
in an effort to
refrain
that would distract
me
and I would stare
at your mouth
made me want to
bite it, too
a nice memory –
tanku
10.28.12
you turned a corner
left me, then,
standing by myself
unsure, to move on
10.28.12
We hadn’t seen each other
for two whole weeks
I got there first.
I remember not
being able to watch for you,
I was so excited to
see you
and was afraid I’d
make a fool of myself
jumping up and
launching myself at you…
I miss those
butterflies – ku
10.28.12
go through the motions
and do what I have
to do
one day at a time
10.28.12
can't hurt any less
yet there's the
silver lining
can't hurt any more
10.28.12
to feel it again
to feel anything
again
passion is feeling
numb-ku
10.28.12
Right now I am still
a moment between
moments
something and
nothing
10.27.12
trains are wonderful
time to enjoy the
journey
something not to
miss
read between the
lines-ku
10.27.12
I write ev'ry day
I know what you
want for me
I'm okay with that
baby steps-ku
10.27.12
who would have found me
I wonder, if I
managed
to knock myself out
when I hit my head
on the
towel rack in the
shower?
and if this is some
kind of subliminal joke about the train....! – tanku
10.26.12
you can't force feelings
as I'm learning
now, but it
would be nice to be
able to feel more
than the
nothing I am
feeling now
(And anyone who
posts Morris Albert's song now will be slapped!- ku) :)
10.26.12
Make me come alive
Let creative juices
flow
Turn me on again!
I gots to be me-ku
10.25.12
Need to feel alive
to get excited
again,
to be able to
proof of life-ku
10.25.12
Play. Listen. Repeat.
My music as therapy.
The Show Must Go On.
10.22.12
the memories rain
droplets of smiles,
yet still not
enough to douse
pain's fire
10.21.12
try to change focus
yet some times
there are never
enough distractions
10.21.12
Tupelo, a chance
to leave it all
behind,
but I took it with
me
No matter where you
are, there you are-ku
10.20.12
It's there
just under the
surface
all the passion,
the love
the rage, the pain
waiting to erupt
10.17.12
how is it that such
a hollow, empty
feeling
can take up such
space?
10.17.12
I see his picture
That wasn't too
long ago
It's hard to believe
it all went
downhill that fast
I can't believe he
is gone.
10.15.12
sadness is heavy
weighs down on your
heart, your lungs
makes it hard to
breathe
10.15.12
I see you by the water
in that special
place
I'll meet you there
and we can talk
10.14.12
"Good Morning!"
Simple
words that become
less simple
when no longer heard
10.13.12
The life of a flame
it starts with a
spark
burns brightly for
a brief moment
then slowly,
quietly dims
until it goes out.
yet before that
happens,
that flame has the
opportunity
to ignite other
flames
even full
conflagrations.
each new flame
ignites other flames
keeping that
original flame
eternally burning
10.10.12
A part of me is missing
I don’t know where
it is
because that part is
with you—
and I don’t know
where you are
message to the
cosmos – ku
10.09.12
anticipation
comes in two forms,
breath -less
and -withheld. I
wait...
10.07.12
I received a beautiful
notebook
as soon as I saw it
I knew what it was for
what I was supposed
to write about
and yet it still
sits, unopened, where I left it
I'm not prepared to
write in past tense yet.
10.05.12
Can't sleep
feel so
useless...helpless
and so very far away
are you ok?
are you alone?
are you scared?
I am
it hasn't all been
said
and I needed to
hear it
this not knowing...
it's tearing me to
pieces
10.03.12
I know what i want
worried it will
never be
nothing I can do
10.02.12
The rain understands
It cries the tears
of others
While they all
pretend
10.02.12
